When dying does seem so hard to do

August 2, 2007

Joel Akin

I think. I think again. Then I think. What would anyone think of if they were dead? You who read me here on this page know I can write weird. If you wade through the lasses then you know the mol may follow.

Lets say mol was a mol before evil came along. Evil took it and put the e in the mol and made it a mole. Lets say at one time man had lasses who lived in homes like mol. One day a big hurt came to the earth and we forgot how to spell. We forgot how to read. We forget everything. And that would be a quote of those who learned their teachings by candle which came from wood fiber. For wood was the only thing they could find left on earth. Only a few solitary people lived and they were called mol.

Now if we are part of the story then it would make sense for mol would be mole and mole is a burrowing animal who lives underground. And if there is one sight that tries to cover the big news of the underground it is here on Earth House or Sanctuary or Doomsday Monocle which is part of Earth House News.

 We as a writer go out and search and we pray for God to teach. And so when I read of mol and lasses it makes sense if men give up love in order to survive.

Suppose for example in the future the Mark of the Beast is a way to read. People have to decide if they wish to give up life. In order to read they must go out and put on either lasses or glasses. Now suppose the g in lasses was put there as a sign to our age. A sign that if you wished to understand you had to have God in the story. Only when we got up to heaven God said “It isn’t lasses which is shortsighted but me. I needed to find lasses but it turned out it was a mol who had the answer.”

 A mole with answers is like a lass with love. So if there are lasses with love it is the mole who has love. So lets say God saw me and laughed and said “If that man has answers he gives it to the head and the head aches.”

That is because I do things that seem to be the head ache or headachin man. Of course it is a misspelling but who would count it if it were a made up word?

The fact is if God knew this age would end in destruction it would be difficult to watch. He would see it and know it would happen. But suppose there was a reason why it would happen? Suppose it was because we left off the news channel. Suppose God used to know everything about the news because there were a million plus Americans praying every single day. God knew what was going on and it was because people prayed. Now they still do but lets say it was the lashes and not lasses who were the problem. And so when God put on glasses he could see but when he put on his lashes he couldn’t.

Now why put on lashes? Perhaps it is because if God were God there were a scar he bore of time. Lets say if God were a spirit and he wanted back his body but sin took it and stole it then that would be a story that we wouldn’t accept. If it were a story of time we would find that hard to accept. But if God showed us the scar he bore in his hand and it was as Christ that he bore that scar would we accept it? If he bore it in heaven itself would we see it? We know that we’ve talked about seeing it. Some want to. I don’t need to. I think heaven should be a place of healing even for Christ. Yet we still want to see the scars on a man and so if the son bore scars what would we do if God bore scars? Would we be shocked? Would we ask what happened to the Holy Spirit? For if the Holy Spirit had scars maybe he was like Mel Gibson and had scars that kept him as a Dove or a Spirit also.

So lets imagine that Mol meant to cover with earth and Mol meant to heal. And lets say at one time God had a birth for men which wasn’t that of time but that of God. Only Sin as an evil Pel hit earth and divided the land into two parts. One was spirit and the other was natural. So if God had to heal men he would heal them first in the natural or spiritual. If sin was in the spiritual then God would fight sin there and then deal with us in the natural but suppose I started getting really bad physically? I would then have to ask God for a little grace. But what if it were impossible to give? I then would have to bear it best I could. And that is where I’m at. I can barely manage going with someone to the store. But I cannot manage not going to the store. So I have to go and I bounce all over the place. I shake with Dystonia so bad that it grips me inside and I tear inside. Not physically but it does affect me in ways that hurt. And so I hurt all the time when I am moving. Sitting here as long as I have my legs up I can prop my hands against my body and prop up my back and focus on the story. If I sit up normally my body spasms and I can’t write. So think of this as being part of my story of a relaxed looking guy with his feet propped up on the desk writing Earth House and building it step by step slowly for almost ten years now. It wasn’t strongly built but it was molasses in the making. Now of course I do think you get the picture of how I write. I do this day after day after day and it isn’t any wonder that I freeze up when it comes time to do what I need to do. I am broken and shattered by a body that doesn’t function. But I have dreams in this head which I try to share on paper. And I do it by grace of God and not by wealth of men. Which means I didn’t build it with hope Google would offer me a billion dollars. If they did I would ask only that I be granted right to continue to build it as I see fit. And that if God came down they could work the web site and I would work with God on idea making.

 There is an idea I have which I don’t know if anyone is doing it. Someday they will but its an idea I think needs to be explored by Google. Call it Google World Encyclopedia. It would simply be cell by cell creation. It would change Google but in ten years no one would visit any other site. The purpose of it would be to build the body of knowledge with sites like mine. I built my site with help from God who had an idea. He saw that if I gave this to Google they might run with it and use it and in ten years be the most visible site in the universe. So God would have a word here for anyone who does take this idea to give me my billion dollars. For it is worth that and no one on the Internet is doing it. For it would change the Internet and it would change it forever. It wouldn’t be about advertising it would be about knowledge. It would have advertising areas but they would be of things like game sites or music sites where people would choose to go.

Now why put this here? I guess its time I shared with you what God wants from me. He wants to show you who read this that here is the answer to the Internet. It is only an encyclopedia right now but it needs to be built up by body. And that means years and years and years of work. People going out day by day and not searching for failure but searching for success. It means putting together the whole story of the Net in a way that honors people instead of nut cases. It isn’t meant to be all the news sites getting first place and it is understandable that places like Google and Yahoo get it right. But they don’t get it right. And if they try to throw people at it by the thousand it won’t work. And I have the reason why but they would still try. I’ll just say I believe Earth House is the right way to go only it is still in progress. And if you want to know I have prayed for God to guide it and He has every single step. I don’t move unless God gives me ideas. And I have them now only it is a battle for me to write.

So I end this with a work to Google. If you read this please send someone to work with me on Earth House. You can use the concept God gives me only it would be your gift from me. I would give you the billion dollar idea free if you put Earth House up for men to try as a concept of a new home. Think of it this way; imagine a home made by Google. It would be a home designed by me but made by you. I would live in it as a disabled man but eventually I would hope to get well. It would be your idea which would be given knowledge for it would take you with your resources to help put it together. I would need one person and an income but the income would be a life supply of Pepsi and maybe Pizza. I think I saw that in a movie once. Anyway if you are willing to talk to a man who speaks with God then write me and I’ll share the idea with you. I only ask you to remember I have it inside and so it would take a year of writing to bring it all out. And so if that makes sense write as I struggle to communicate other ways.

To the man in charge I would say God gives to those who give. I know you have a face but I can’t remember who wrote the saying “If a man finds a friend he finds wealth. If a man makes a friend he makes wealth. If a man finds a friend of God he makes wealth last. If you find God you make a friend. If you find God you find a friend. If you find a friend in God God then takes you up to His heart. If you find a way to make wealth it is lasting. If Google finds this it is lasting. If Google understands this it is lasting. If Google makes me wealthy it will last a long time. If Google gives me method of earning it will last. If Google gives me friendship it will last. If Google finds this it will be because I write it just the right amount of times. And if you who read this think I’m writing to Google to get money it is true. And if I do it to make them wealthy I pray I don’t blow it. If they like the idea I have I have more. If they like my work then can write. And if they think I write too much then ask “Who is God?” For there are many of you who ask it and God knows you. You are a friend to God if you can find it. That is in this page I write a mystery. A mystery which some will find. if it is found by Google it is found by someone who searches. If they pass it off as a joke they will lose the weight. The weight is the earth for the Lord said “Google could be there at the end of the story. That is if the mol who write it was lasses would lose the l in Google where would Google be? And to answer that with grace I smile and grab for my glass and hope it is tea.”

Now to those who wonder if that was a quote it was. If they wonder if it really can answer life at its best I will say it might. If you can find a method for Google to find scientists in their pages with mysteries then here is the final one; Who owns the cattle under the hill? You will find if God is in heaven and man is on earth the answer should be God set us up from the beginning. Maybe we were the natural side of things. Which means if the root is evil we are the root. If the root is the route to heaven then who wrote the route? For the route was the wrote before someone messed it up and got it backwards. And that my friends is the news for today.

Write me,

Joel

earthhouse@gmail.com